A Guide to Self Love
February is so many things. Black History Month. Lyme Disease awareness month. And 28 days that either remind us how loved or how lonely we are in this life. I used to be a Valentine’s Day hater. Sarcastic High School Amy sent black paper hearts riddled with ironic love poems written in silver Sharpie to all of my classmates. College Amy avoided the holiday all together. My worst breakup happened two days after a Valentine’s steak dinner. His roommate cooked it, so I really should have seen it coming. I’ve never understood the candy, flowers, and pink paper hearts plastered in every storefront window because sometimes all Valentine’s day does is remind us how alone we really are.
Whether we are single, or in a relationship, the constant reminder that February is about someone special can make us forget that “someone special” is really ourselves.
We spend so much time searching for soul mates, pleasing partners, and wishing for love that we forget that our real long-term out-of-this-world love affair will always be with ourselves.
Humans are born to love, yet fear clouds our rational judgment and convinces us that life is not a series of Hallmark movie moments.
I’m changing my attitude. I spent years hating Valentine’s Day because I didn’t think I had the energy to love. Growing up with Lyme, I thought I was too broken to love, and lacked the confidence to love myself. Now that I’m out of the woods of tick-borne disease, I realize I wasted years afraid love would cause more pain than all the blood draws, injections, and mountains of medical bills. However, that now sounds crazy. Humans are born to love, yet fear clouds our rational judgment and convinces us that life is not a series of Hallmark movie moments. But what if our judgement is wrong? Looking past the candy hearts and discount bouquets, I want to return to the root of Valentine’s day. Whether it’s a day spent alone, with a partner, or a group of gals, Valentine’s day should serve as a reminder that love actually IS all around us (thanks Hugh Grant!).
So this year, I want to fill the world with a little more love, and a little less loneliness.
For the month of February, I’m making as many Valentines as possible to send out into the world, and I’m asking for volunteers to accept them. As individuals we are conditioned to think we cannot the change the world. We are too small, too insignificant. The world is too troubled, too out of control. As our political climate changes, and our literal climate degrades, our hopelessness grows faster than our love. But there is one way to change the world, one person at a time, and that is with love. So I’m replacing my hopelessness with stickers, and my fear with postcard stamps, in a simple attempt to fill the world with a little more love.
So, if you would like a little love sent to your mailbox during the month of February, I’m your girl. Email your snail-mail address to firstname.lastname@example.org, to help me fill the world with a little more love.