Day 21: You Want to Quit Whole 30
Three weeks in, day 21 is supposed to be the hardest day of the Whole 30 Challenge. Maybe it's that you've come so far, but still have so far to go, or maybe it's that you're finally sick of eating eggs.
On day 21, I woke up thinking "I never want to eat again."
Suddenly nothing was appealing. I reached a new zen place with food. I didn't wan to quit, but I didn't want to participate either.
I didn't want eggs. I found kale repulsive, and the cashews eaten as a protein staple were starting to burn in my mouth. So I did something crazy.
I started an elimination diet, while on and elimination diet.
Unfortunately, this double negative doesn't result in me reuniting with gluten free donuts, but instead cutting even more out of my diet. I said farewell to tree nuts, including coconut oil, as well as all iced beverages (it's good for my ailing spleen).
Then, a funny thing happened.
My interest in food changed again. I no longer wanted simple meals, I just wanted single items--raw carrots, grapes, a few pieces of bacon. My desire for flavor was reversing, simplifying, and ultimately helping my body reset. The bloat and discomfort I had from the first week (they warn you it's part of the detoxing) finally started to subside. It turns out, a large part of my dietary problems was all thanks to the tiny tree nuts I'd been eating at the rate that my middle-school fat kid self ate gushers and skittles.
The euphoria of resetting my body started to settle in. This is how clean eating is supposed to feel.
The high was quickly followed by the heart-pounding fear of ever breaking the Whole 30. I want to feel like this forever. So, will this become a Whole 365? Too soon to tell, but I wouldn't rule out the possibility.